si lucu

is my best Aussie workmate ever !

Hard worker, the best team player u've wish for, reliable, funny, motivating, and always bringing positive attitude to me. I might not have the best job in the world, I'd probably have the worst job ever but I have the best person to work with.

And he won't be there next week and the week after and the week after that and like for good :(

This is heartbreaking for me, it's like breaking up with ur boyfriend, not that I love him it's just weird not seeing him at work and no one that I can rely on, at work I mean.

Hiks.

Ga ada lagi yang sms tiap ari:
coffee?
haha just arrived, waiting for you.
bubble tea? c'mon u want it
anything from coles?
ordering catchoftheday, want any?

hiks.

Ga ada lagi yang bilang:
I'll pick up the phone.
Im bored kill me now
hey check this cool games
that's ok I'll sort these out
so what's for lunch? feel like hans and utopia?
Don't worry wendy, I dont leave u alone, I leave si ganteng with you.


Huwaaaaaaaaaaa T.T

I guess I will cry tomorrow.

Best of luck in the States, lucu, oh and I will miss you. much.

ps: can I keep you on fridge and defrost you when I miss you?

Life is a full of shit

sometimes.

oh well most of times.

Tindakan-tindakan dan pikiran-pikiran radikal

Hayo gimana kalo saya :

1. pindah jurusan jadi Master of Biochemical engineering BY RESEARCH next semester karna marketing uda ga ada gregetnya.

2. dipinang sama bule alaska gara2 saya ga suka summer.

3. ternyata adalah putri kerajaan cina yang nyamar jadi orang biasa.

4. ternyata miliuner yang cuman pura2 kerja jadi rakyat jelata biar tau orang mana yang baek dan jahat di dunia nyata.

5. Saking terlalu muaknya sama current manager saya, saya beli starbucks trus semua kafe di perth saya beli dan diganti sama starbucks biar itu manager tau rasa.

6. secara random terpilih jadi the next CEO nya Singapore airlines karna saya cinta mati sama airline itu.

7. secara tiba2 di refer sama lecturer saya jadi chief marketing nya tourism UK trus pindah ke London, nyetir Lexus yang bisa parkir pararel sendiri, pake Coldplay jadi spokeperson nya tourism UK, punya rumah di sebelah Beckingham - rumahnya vicbec - trus tuker2an Hermes sama dia.

Indahnya berkhayal.

miss josephine, i miss you

One of the choir members will be playing her violin for the wedding mass next week.
That little moment has melted my heart and I know exactly how I miss my little sista.

I'm not sure yet

Whether this would suit me.

whether there would be enough points to get my PR

whether I can handle that

* stress effect *

when your office is exactly next to GM 's office and you will be by yourself on your fourth day working, answering all the inquiries which you have no idea at all and people might be thinking how can be this company hired a stupid person like me; you will feel like a big fat dump who can't speak English properly and has never been to school.

hux

Malesnya kerja besok. T-T huwwaaaaa ga mau kerjaaaaaaa
mau pijet ajaaaa
ga mau kerja ga mau kerjaaa

yang tersisa hari ini , , , , , , ,

I started my day from 4.45 in the morning because I got 6 am shift, 3 staff were absent today, so 5 of us had to cover their duties. Hari ini bener bener bener bener bener CAPEK. capek sampe badan mau rontok semua, tadi udah mo ijin pulang aja jam 1an gitu udah ga kuat, pusing n lemes eh untung sls jam stg 2 tadi, tadi pas delivery turun lift aja uda pusing stg mati, take orders smp ga itung duit lg lgs aja masuk till semua. Siapa bilang kerja croissant express enak? ngepel toko, nyuci tray jijay sejibun, nge-slice ham dan cheese dan sebagainya smp tangan pegel. Pulang kerja tadi langsung tancep ke IKEA gara2 rak baju yg gantung udah mayan jebol jd terpaksa mesti kesana, pulang rumah jam 5an. Sampe rumah, langsung bongkar lemari dll, sampe jam 8 kurang trus laundry baju yang bener2 sejibun sampe mesti nyuci 2x. Jam 9an dijemput Jon ke ultah temennya di UTopia Northbridge karaokean sampe ini barusan pulang jam stg 2an pagi, langsung nyambung jemur baju yg td dilaundry.

Ya amplop, 2 jam 45 mnt lagi hari ini udah abis dan aku masih melek ga pake istirahat. Rontok bok rontok. Mana belon makan malem, ini laper banged krasanya, capek juga banged2an tapi ga bisa ditidurin biasa nih kumat capek abis tapi ga ngantuk bikin tmbh sebel aja.

Oh ya, hari ini saya banyak luka lho satu di tangan kena tutup dishwasher tadi, satu di kaki kena kakinya hamper baju, dan sisanya kecil2 banyak di tangan ga tau kena apa pokoknya tiap pulang kerja slalu nambah. hebyaaat.

I'm soooo not in the mood .

Have Your mercy on me.

Have you all been in a love-hate relationship situation with something or someone?

Amazingly, I'm in a love-hate relationship with myself. feeling weird? yeah, me too, it is indeed. Since it is the first time, I'm having this really weird situation, I have no idea what to do or what I should do. For most of the time, I hate myself, I hate the way I am now, I hate the way I think, I hate the way I live, I hate the way I speak, I hate the way I act. But in the same time, I often pamper myself much more than usual as if I love myself more than ever; as if I need to favor my soul all the time.

Am I denying myself? Am I denying my situation? or Am I in the process of accepting the situation?

There are so many questions in my mind, but no one can answer me, not even one question, not even my parents, not even my beloved ones, not even myself. Maybe it's His way to get myself closer to Him?

I'm sorry if I have bad temperament these days, I just feel like my soul and my body are separated. They have their own brains and veins and I'm lost between them. I'm just lost in myself and I see no future if I continue doing what I'm doing now. I'm so alone.

syalalalala

I do not know whether should I be excited or sad? whatever the answer is, I've been waiting for 3 years to wear it.

saya ingin pulang kampung halaman

AMAT SANGAT !
Pengen ngerasain udara kotor polusi spd motor dan bemo2.
Pengen mejeng di TP 4 klo mlm minggu, berasa balik SMA, sambil ngerasani ai" & cece2 rmbt jebobok.
Pengen lari meluk mama papa.
Pengen kabur rasanya dari Aussie ini. bentar aja gak papa.

terKadang, menJALANi kenyataan ga segampang meNERIMA kenyataan itu.

mbencekno.

ahhh tauk ah. nyebelin nyebelin. semuanya nyebelin.
yang satu manis2 eh ada maunya, kliatan tauuuu.
yang satu ga peka.
di dorong sini, di dorong sana.
bullshit semuanya.

sigh. dunia lagi ga bersahabat sama wendy.

heran.

Jadi bingung, udah koar" katanya harus berubah, harus lebih friendly tapi ga ada kesadaran dari diri sendiri.
Mana bisa maju WOI !!!!
NGOMONG DOANG bisanya ! begitu disuruh sacrifice sesuatu PADA MUNDUR !
ga usa bikin goal - goal muluk" gitu, bikin target KESADARAN DIRI dulu baru berani goal !
ga usa heran ga bisa maju", refleksi dulu diri sendiri.

curhat session

There are sooooo many things in my mind.
I'm so confused, so unsecured, and so unsettled.
What would I do in the next 6 months? Where would I be? Who would I be ?
This is just - so - not me, this isnot Wendy.
Ugh, I hate this kind of - unsettled- situation.
Do I need a shrink ?

survivor

Do you wanna know how it feels, surviving to live with only $85 in your bank account and 10 lt fuel in your car?

it does really suck

I wish I had branded things, so I could sell them on ebay. too bad. I haven't any.

I wanted to sell my textbooks in the second hand bookshop at Curtin. and they rejected all of them. they said,
" this book is the last edition, we no longer use it anymore". damn. now, I'm left with piles of book and i'm still broke.

my life is pathetic.

It is pathetic, really.

(";")

I think I won't be going out for a couple of weeks. Sorry friends, I must save my money. hux hux T.T

aiyah.

Today's schedule:

nothing. until 16.30, picking up my mom's friend's son at the airport.
back home. nothing. until 19.00 choir practice for a wedding.

What to do at home:

relaxing. [*cough* ]
Craving for baking cakes actually but somehow I forgot that I'm broke a.k.a no money left so yeah, I think I just lay on my bed until lunch [eating whatever food left on my fridge --> refer to 1 piece of fried chick, my leftover beef stir fry, or fried tofu with pork floss] and then lay on my bed again until Jon finishes his BPL meeting and bring dinner *yay, see how desperate am I?*

flat

I have absolutely nothing to update.

my routine weekly schedule from now on.

MON : stay at home. applying for jobs all the day. watching dvds. cooking for the entire week.
Daily Mass at St Joachim church a.k.a the church next to my house. CHOIR practice on 7.30 pm .

TUE : Red rooster. 09.30 - 16.30.

WED : Red rooster. again. 09.30 - 16.30. CHOIR practice again.

THUR : stay at home. applying for jobs again. daily Mass at St Joachim church. Late nite shopping (?).

FRI : Red rooster. 09.30 - 16.30.

SAT : absolutely no idea.

SUN : Sunday mass 11.30 at St Benedict (Indo mass). Lunch - ing. go home. napping. cooking.

and.

me miss him.

in my good mood (not!)

Me miss home
me miss my quilt
me miss my kitchen
me miss my shower