binyun **

Pindah? engga? Pindah? engga?

TR? sponsor? TR? sponsor?

Januari? Juni? Januari? Juni?

Postgrad? Kerja? Postgrad? Kerja?

yang pasti saya pengen kerja disini nantinya kalo jadi pindah. kalo jadiiii.

binyun** : berasal dari kata BINGUNG. pemakaiannya sama seperti atit peyut**: sakit perut. mwahaha. ga penting sih.

Have Your mercy on me.

Have you all been in a love-hate relationship situation with something or someone?

Amazingly, I'm in a love-hate relationship with myself. feeling weird? yeah, me too, it is indeed. Since it is the first time, I'm having this really weird situation, I have no idea what to do or what I should do. For most of the time, I hate myself, I hate the way I am now, I hate the way I think, I hate the way I live, I hate the way I speak, I hate the way I act. But in the same time, I often pamper myself much more than usual as if I love myself more than ever; as if I need to favor my soul all the time.

Am I denying myself? Am I denying my situation? or Am I in the process of accepting the situation?

There are so many questions in my mind, but no one can answer me, not even one question, not even my parents, not even my beloved ones, not even myself. Maybe it's His way to get myself closer to Him?

I'm sorry if I have bad temperament these days, I just feel like my soul and my body are separated. They have their own brains and veins and I'm lost between them. I'm just lost in myself and I see no future if I continue doing what I'm doing now. I'm so alone.

syalalalala

I do not know whether should I be excited or sad? whatever the answer is, I've been waiting for 3 years to wear it.

the prayer *versi wendy*

Tuhan jangan naikin harga bensin lagi ya, please please
hr ini & besok plg murah udah $142.5 lho
khan skrg tiap ari kerja di city, jadi mesti naek bis
dobel deh pengeluarannya. beli bensin sama ngisi smartrider.
naik bis juga uda ga bisa pake harga concession lagi, kalo 2 section aja udah $1.60
itu mahal lho Tuhan, kalo 2x jalan udah $3.20
kalo boong sama sopirnya masi concession ntar jadi dosa
gimana donk? kapan wendy bisa bli tas nine westnya ?

saya ingin pulang kampung halaman

AMAT SANGAT !
Pengen ngerasain udara kotor polusi spd motor dan bemo2.
Pengen mejeng di TP 4 klo mlm minggu, berasa balik SMA, sambil ngerasani ai" & cece2 rmbt jebobok.
Pengen lari meluk mama papa.
Pengen kabur rasanya dari Aussie ini. bentar aja gak papa.

Chiki ini enaaaaaak sekali

Sudah banyak orang yang terkontaminasi oleh rasa enak chiki ini.
Dapatkan segera di toko korea kesayangan anda ! hahahaha
Menurut research saya ya *ini primary research lho*
yang paling murah di Perth:
Hi-Mart Barrach st, Perth WA - $1.16
Toko Korea ga tau namanya, sblh TukBeGi, di Pier st, Perth - $1.35
Hi-Mart Albany Hwy, Vic Park - $1.40
Hi-mart2 yang laen (Canningvale and Myaree) - Ga Tau secara jarang kesana.

Sekian sodara2 marketing dari saya.

All I could say is

I want to go back to my old UNI days, where assignments and group meetings were always the enemies.
I want to feel the rush when the assignments are due in 24 hours and I'm still writing the introduction part.
I know it's weird but it's true.

Me want to skip classes, me want to queue buying flat white and choc muffin at Angazi cafe, coming late after the break.
How nice it is, doing research and writing the assignments. Hmmppff, I want to go back to Uni.

I know it's weird, it is indeed.

hahahaha.

Ai lap yuuu Curtin ....
Ai lap yuuu 408, 402 and Angazi and "Warung" and Main cafe
Ai miss lunch-ing together and the picnics at "front of" the library

terKadang, menJALANi kenyataan ga segampang meNERIMA kenyataan itu.

mampus ini.

I just got a call from Victoria Park Hotel to arrange an interview. The problem is ..... I have no idea what kind of job I applied. none. kosong. blas.
I searched all my emails about the company and the one who called me just now but it turned zero email.

*stressed out*

how ini how? ketemu sih satu email yg namanya sama ky yg telpon aku, tapi kok nama companynya beda. Trus masak aku apply buat Event Co-ordinator?? heeh rada sinting aku ini.

Lah gimana ini besok. *kebayang bsk pas interview*

Interviewer: Well, Wendy, tell me why do you want this job?
W: ehmm yeaah, well, ehhmm, I think I have the ability to do that.
I: Do what?
W: ehmm do that thing, that job which I have no idea at all. ;p
I: Have u had any previous experience in this field?
W: ehmm, yeaah, sort of.

Update

I just got the news from Music Ministry !

GLADI RESIK:
Saturday 16 August 2008
03:00 PM
Konsulat RI

Yaaaaakk ga jadi kosong deeeeeeehhh... nyambung ke gereja Misa sore entah di St. Joachim ato di Bateman ini lalu sambung lagi ke farewell Teguh.

sibuk saya sibuuuuukkk

qualified maid.

Inget ttg rumahku yang perlu dibersiin?

I've spent 1,5 hour to clean my bathroom !!!!!!

I just can't stand it. a Bathroom should be clean clean clean. and now it's clean clean clean. yihaaaaa . . . . . . . . .

next would be kitchen and vacuum cleaning for the whole house. hux. hux. hux.

sibuk.super sibuk.sok sibuk

Belum kerja aja udah sibuk setengah mati, gimana ntar kalo dah kerja ya ?

Minggu lalu contohnya,

Senin & Rabu malem tentunya latian CHOIR

Selasa & Rabu pagi smp siang tentunya kerja RR

Kamis siang sekarang bantuin my former employer a.k.a Tina

Kamis malem ada thanksgiving dinner yang besokannya mo wedding

Jumat siang ada wedding matrimony a.k.a choir

Jumat sore ke Garbo bentar, nemenin Jojo cari kabel trus bantuin Post Office dia

Jumat malem ngedate di Freo

Sabtu pagi sampe malem ikut seminar TOM

Minggu pagi dan siang khan CHOIR dan Misa dan lunching dan pulang

Minggu malem ampe tengah malem ada relaxation nite by nutrimetics di rumah Vita

JRENG JRENG JRENG ----- SEMINGGU BERLALU -------

Minggu ini :

Senin dan Rabu tetep CHOIR PRACTICE

Selasa dan Rabu tetep kerja RR

Selasa malem ada Meeting Retreat

Kamis udah di booked ama tante MENDI buat LATE NITE, katanya udah lama kita ga begajulan

JUMAT saya KOSONG saudara-saudara ! eeitss tapi barusan JoJo minta di temenin check up ( saya serem liat six pack dia, dipaksa check up deh hahaha)
GAK JADI KOSONG !

Sabtu siang ga ada acara *BERSI2 RUMAH WOOIIIII*

Sabtu malem ada acara farewell temen

Minggu super pagi , CHOIR di konsulat khan DIRGAHAYU RI !!! ICYO bakal nyanyi lho di upacara pagi konsulat PERTH

Minggu siang ada BBQ bday party temen
yang sebetulnya juga ada acara, back in St Benedict church

Pulang ke rumah cuman buat brekkie dan tidur. gaswat ini. rumah kotor abesss

this is what I call love.

Loving the black version of the heels and the tan version of this handbag

photos taken from www.ninewest.com.au

A friday nite date.

Me and Jon went to Fremantle, accidentally, after choir-ing on a wedding matrimony on the afternoon and helping Jon's post office at North Fremantle. We had fun, eventhou I only wore a MINI DRESS (considering I hadn't gone home since the wedding matrimony), a thin cardie and JON'S JUMPER !

We just walked around the freo market, bought some bananas for Jon's mum, and had dinner at the Ramen resto ! and then we just sat on the bench on the cafe strips area, with ice cream on our hands. PERFECT.

Inside the Fremantle Market (that bakery really smelled yummy !)

Inside the Fremantle Market

Eating ramen !

Crispy chicken -miso soup- ramen ~ Takoyaki ~ Tempura Ramen

Gelato ice cream ( Bacio for him and Ferrero for me ), pretty challenging to finish it since the weather was really cold and windy *it's freo!* plus I only wore a mini dress and Jon's jumper.

mbencekno.

ahhh tauk ah. nyebelin nyebelin. semuanya nyebelin.
yang satu manis2 eh ada maunya, kliatan tauuuu.
yang satu ga peka.
di dorong sini, di dorong sana.
bullshit semuanya.

sigh. dunia lagi ga bersahabat sama wendy.

heran.

Jadi bingung, udah koar" katanya harus berubah, harus lebih friendly tapi ga ada kesadaran dari diri sendiri.
Mana bisa maju WOI !!!!
NGOMONG DOANG bisanya ! begitu disuruh sacrifice sesuatu PADA MUNDUR !
ga usa bikin goal - goal muluk" gitu, bikin target KESADARAN DIRI dulu baru berani goal !
ga usa heran ga bisa maju", refleksi dulu diri sendiri.

curhat session

There are sooooo many things in my mind.
I'm so confused, so unsecured, and so unsettled.
What would I do in the next 6 months? Where would I be? Who would I be ?
This is just - so - not me, this isnot Wendy.
Ugh, I hate this kind of - unsettled- situation.
Do I need a shrink ?

In half an hour I'll be off to Toodyay for ICYO leadership camp !

See ya folks on sunday night !